Haven't had much inspiration to blog... been mostly frustrated and in pain i guess....cos of the terrible fall I had last week. So unlike me can... but yeah, carved like a kinda hole in my left shin as I was trying to get up the darned shuttle bus....nearly sprained my right ankle in the stupid pot hole and banged my left shin. Woohoo...sounds damn exciting right... (and I was just thinking tt my life was getting kinda boring)

Yup...so didn't realise until moments later on the bus after the huge waves of pain subsided abit...then decided to check on my shin and voila, there was blood streaming all the way down and soaking into my sandals. eww..... so yeah, my poor baby had to withstand the gory sight of my blood(which was a nice dark red colour) and my skin, which I realised got stuck onto the fabric of my pants and showed him....heh.

So it was quite funny when we went to the doc at YIH cos the nurses didn't see it at first so just thot twas nothing much, so at the registration counter, the conversation went:

Nurse: So what happened? See doctor ah?
Me: Ya, I kinda just hurt myself...
Nurse: So need dressing?
Me: Erm...ya, probably I think...
Nurse: Ah issit....nevermind la, u see the doctor first, i register u now
Me: Oh ok :/

Then like half an hr later...after they made me take my weight (againwe were still waiting cos the clinic damn full and I was trying to stop it frm bleeding too much and soaking my sandle even more when one of the nurses walked by and realised

Nurse: Are u bleeding??
Me: Er...ya...
Nurse: Lemme see...aiyo! Got to the treatment room... (walks over to the treatment room) Patient in trauma!
Me: ?! Er...in trauma meh... nevermind la, we've been waiting for half an hr liao..

Yar....so drama right.... first time I hear tt I'm in "trauma"... but then the nurses were really nice, altho the doc had no idea of the amt of pain i was in, she tried to squeeze the wound to see if she could stitch it up. Ugh.

My baby has been such a hero, helping me everywhere....even tho he had to carry my silly badminton bag which I brought to sch for nothing. Tt was very heavy already k! Everyone else thot he shld haf carried me. But we both knew tt 1 healthy person helping 1 handicapped is better than 2 handicapped! He might've ended up wif more permanent injuries! :p

Well, the gd thing abt today is tt my ISM is taking abit more shape than before...miss having consultations with Jang Jang, since unfortunately I couldn't get him as my supervisor.... he's so drama, but in the cha-chat singlish kinda way.... quite the lao beng kind! Maybe once in a while I shld go and see him for encouragement since he seems to think I can write.... dun think Edna thinks so well of me tho....but she's nice...and fun too in her sweet and sophisticated kinda way...

Getting abit sick of TS stuff now.... feeling quite jaded, guess cos I've been doing too much theatre stuff for the past few mths! Somehow I begin to enjoy my other module, drugs and society...learning all abt medicines and drugs and all....quite cool. Not computing tho...too foreign liao...and they made me do calculations! Good heavens!

Hmm....catechism started last weekend....and I think I break into singlish too much in class. :\ not sure whether they have all lost respect for me or not. Maybe I'm learning too much frm Jang Jang, oh well, need to start speaking more proper english!!

Blogging is such a performance and exercise in performativity! The more I think abt it, the more I feel that blogging cannot really be totally honest (unless sometimes when ur just cursing and swearing at some asshole) cos u always portray what u want others to see.....everything is subconsciously, or consciously constructed to put forward an image. Aiya...stupid performance theory!

Some words just for those who are afraid of what the future holds(esp me actually)

"To live only for some future goal is shallow. It's the sides of the mountain that sustain life, not the top."

--Robert M. Pirsig


comment frm Jon: indeed. We tend to forget that the purpose of climbing is not merely to get to the top some day - we climb because it gives us something to do, a place to be, a motion. And as for those who live only to see the summit - well, they'd best pray that they actually get there, that's all...

I dunno whether to be happy or sad that some person still reads my blog. I think I should feel loved. *grin* Hello you!! *wave*

Anyway, God sent me an angel....erm, make that 2 (+ 1 = 3, including my baby) angels yesterday to try to pull me out from the crappiness of sch and other things. Was quite prepared to sulk all the way home from sch on the train cos twas rush hr and I couldn't meet Shane, but I met Dwayne, one of my classmates from a previous module, and as u know la, TS pple forever damn bitchy...so twas quite funny bitching with him...talking abt HK and China, our most recent holidays. Didn't realise tt my spirits were really lifted until I walked out of the station... and notice tt I wasn't sulking, in fact was kinda smiling. Amazing.

Then, at the park with Shane later tt night, a cat just crept up to us, hung around like very near us and later even following us....as if trying to comfort me or sthg, which is strange behaviour for cats with regards to strangers. Hmm. Strange. Oh well!

Today's Happy Musings...

Enjoyed dinner with Brenda and Lili and of cos my Shane... didn't feel uncomfortable at all. That's a gd start to the PR skills that I need to pick up, maybe? More thoughts on that some other time la, but it was really nice, altho I seldom speak to them... and air stewardess' bitching is quite fun :)

Today's more-or-less-neutral Musings...

First day back in sch today, first day of term. Thought it wld be quite nice to start of with Jang Jang's ( My lecturer) class...but seems like it's quite cheem, lotsa theories and shit again. Haiz...this is not gonna be an easy sem. :( I must psycho myself to enjoy sch! Tmw's lec sounds interesting, but then dunno whether the science module will kill me...hopefully not!

Finally, the big bother of today and the past few days.... (**disclaimer: some rather strong language used below...do not read if u are easily offended)
Sigh, I know that Shane is attractive, but the boy is MINE! So, To you, NNH! Why don't you just keep your bloody paws off my boyfriend? Stop pretending to be nice and shit when I know like hell u aren't!! I swear that I won't just keep quiet the next time u try anymore funny business!

Er, ok my ranting is over. But just needed to get it off my chest la, even tho tt person prob doesn't read my page. Geez. Some pple juz love to piss me off. Shorten my road to heaven but add to the load? Or be at peace with myself and have to travel a long way up?

Whoop dee doo. Life just keeps getting better.. NOT!

Feel... abit more than just stupid right now. Sigh. I don't get pms la, it's just this perpetual sian.

The future doesn't look too bright for me, and even tho I can tell pple to look on the bright side, I can't seem to see mine right now.

Heard Fr Luke's sermon twice this weekend...and thought it was pretty good. Something about God not practicing favouritism, so he loves each and every one of us....even those losers we can't stand, those who irritate the shit out of pple and all. Yeah, was just thinking how difficult it is to see that these pple are loved by God, and that we are called to be Christian and love them too. It is difficult to be Christian ain't it?

Yar... my melancholic musings...too much of these recently man. Tsk.

Erm. Am a little freaked out. Just discovered tt Budak Pantai has apparently found my blog and read my comments on them? (See below Nov 30th 2004 AND archived Oct 23rd 2003 comment box) Unless someone is trying to play a trick on me. But then cannot be cos the comments are hardly like the trick type! Wah heng ah! Lucky I never say anything bad abt them! (But there is really nothing bad to say actually cos I do think they're damn gd) My baby gave me their Xmas CD for a Christmas....and it's damn funny! Burst out laughing at the song Gor Liap...cos they like changed this jazz classic into some hokkien song.... hilarious!

But juz a bit freaky la...cos I always felt my blog was more or less private... but guess with google, nothing's that private anymore! So tts how they got my email! Cos like recently I started to receive emails frm them...and I was (and still am actually) pretty pleased abt it..cos then I get like first hand info abt their concerts and all woohoo! Never quite thot how it came to be..and now I realise. Geez....now I never know who's gonna be reading my blog. Juz hope my previous gushes abt certain pple haf not been found! If not!! *fainted*

On another note:
Today, Shane and I celebrate our 6th month (and 3 yrs :p) anniversary. Am so glad to have been blessed with someone so special.

Here are some photos (of our chachat moments) for your viewing pleasure. Enjoy!


*Concentrate, concentrate* Me: you won't beat me that easily....


Shane: Yaaah!!!! I won!!


Me: Not so fast mister....I win!!!!

Now, off to prepare for the surprise tonight... shhh...

Oh, and sorry princess Karen tt we can't be at ur party!