I have this really bad feeling tt blogger, when they revamped or changed the entire blogging system they forgot abt the public pte blog thing. So like my blogs altho they're pte will be put on the "recently published blogs" list. -_- Tamade.

Well, basically slept for more than 12 hrs on mon nite till tues. Tues was me day...haven't had tt in a long long time. Have been exhausted by the hectic schedule that I had for the past weeks or so. Basically meetings and more meetings, then camp and working for arts fest.

I'm so glad wk has ended....cos it really took up a lot of energy frm me. It didn't help tt they're all like damn far away frm home. The last one was at Choa Chu Kang! One whole hr train ride! Absolutely disgusting man! But it's over, and hopefully I'll have nothing to do with tt place anymore for a long long time to come!

CGL retreat was quite good....a pity tt I missed the prayer session. Haven't really had this kinda thing for a long time. But the pairings worked out eventually and now we have a whole new group of CGLs. And I suppose, I as coordinator would have many things to learn in the coming year and I am quite excited about it. Altho right now there are lotsa things in my life which I have to sort out, but I believe things will get better when sch starts...cos hopefully i'll have sorted them out by then!

Recently wrote a poem.....some sort of to Jixuan (my ex)....but decided agst sending it to him cos it might lead to some very unfavourable consequences. But I suppose I can let u guys read. It's a little raw and a friend thinks it sounds more like prose. But i think it speaks very clearly about how I feel....altho it maybe many things...it still is very accurate la. =)

When will the hurt ever end?
The pain ever stop?
It seems to stretch into eternity,
Coming back again to haunt me.

It can't be blocked out,
or forgotten...
Though I wished like hell it would.

Get out of my life you,
the cause of my hurt
You, who act as if all is back to normal.
I hate you.

Friendship cannot exist, just yet.
Maybe in the years to come, but for now,
it's impossible for me to accept,
to trust, and to love.

I'm not as strong as I thought I'd be.
Not the "man" I wanted to be
My emotions still run,
I still feel... pain

So please go away,
Get the hell out of my life.
Leave me alone...
Alone in my misery.

Yup....juz a little abt how I felt la. Other than tt, went canoeing today! Am slightly burnt again...but I dun really mind! ;p And i have like 3 major blueblacks on my legs....cos was trying to help these two girls get into their double canoe since the waves were v high n the tide v strong so ended up getting the canoe bashed against my shins and hit my foot agst one of the paddles tt fell onto the sand. Sigh. Terrible....all bruised.

Played badminton yesterday...with some of the usual pple....and had fun...esp wif Jiayee cos she's so gd! Miss talking to her and all during the period when i was very bz. Then went to play pool wif Fr John Paul....I still suck at pool. Sianz.....am rather unteachable I feel...but oh well, it's not really tt impt la. Unless maybe I find a pool freak for a bf...which is most unlikely. ;p Then wanted to go KTV but Mark and I v broke and no other kaki to go wif us....even today also ended up not going. Well, I dun care! Sometime next week I'll organise one to Kbox! And then i'll sing to my heart's content!

Tmw am goin to check out postgrad studies at the australian unis.....hopefully I'll be able to find sthg interesting....I think it'll be a gd experience to study overseas...but lets see if it'll actually help my career....if not no point spending all tt money juz for experience!

Alright la...need to wake up quite early tmw....off to bed!

Well, didn't enjoy FOC as much as I thot i wld. I think too often i kena sudden long periods of over busyness and often burn out. Was so tired and grouchy during FOC tt perhaps my freshies didn't really like the way I facilitated. Sigh. Feel a bit bad.

Am still feeling a bit off today....but it has been much better than yesterday, after talking to Ivan, who always manages to give me a better perspective on things. I think I need a personal retreat sometime soon... to think through my life again.

Spiritually I feel awfully dry....and this is not gd, especially for the upcoming CGL retreat...i need rest!!

Well, "Musings" will be taking a break....perhaps till next week, when I manage to get some rest. Cya all then.

Kidsfest has finally ended! And I've been out the past 2 days....enjoying myself. Now savouring my last few hrs of rest before i start my busy schedule again. Been spending time with the tuition gp...(hmm..must find a new name for this gp...tuition gp sounds rather unglam)

Yup, went for this thing called Eastern Flicks at Stadium cove on fri, after work. It's a really nice place, with nice ambience and all. Altho not much lighting but the lights from the tents are quite sufficient. It didn't rain so the grass wasn't wet or anything, and NAC or shld i say DHL provided mats...and they were pretty big ones too! We had a sort of movie marathon beginning from abt 8 plus till 12 plus....consisting of 2 short films, one by Royston Tan, the guy who did Fifteen, the short film on A-bengs and then did another longer one which was shown at the S'pore Film Fest recently. There was another short film also, called Holiday by some girl, can't rem her name now and the other 2 long ones were Eating Air and Twelve Storeys, both a little disturbing and a little dark. And the irritating thing was tt they ended with such 'open-endedness'....tt made u think a lot....

I say it's kinda irritating cos there's like no concl tt the filmaker draws for u.....so u hafta think. Guess I'm juz lazy la. ;p But the best thing was really the company....and the food! All thanks to Weilin who did most of the preparation cos most of us were working and busy. It was so fun juz to spend time together, talk, laugh and just enjoy each other's company. And of cos the food helped (but i already said tt rite... ;p)

Then last night went to watch the SAF choir with Chonghan...the last time i went they were really quite gd...i think now the standard drop abit liao....or either tt i'm older so not so impressionable and haf a higher standard la. Altho most of them had gd voices and sang nice and upbeat songs, esp the a capella segment, the balance was a bit off...as in some of them had no power in the solo parts....and were like drowned by the backup singers... and there wasn't much bass. Also, the audience was like 90% geenas! Cos they prob sold most of their tix to schools....I really felt so old man.

After tt took a nice walk to Chijmes and Raffles Hotel cos Chonghan wanted to finish his film....haven't actually walked ard tt area for such a long time now...and Chijmes is really beautiful at night.

Yup...I prob won't have time to blog at least till thurs...am going for FOC now! Am rather excited actually....meeting the new freshies and all.....lets hope tt the turn out is gd...cos if not we won't have much 'new blood' and we'll all become soo stale.....

Buenas Noches!!! (Means Good night in Spanish) Tis quite cool to have like foreign gps wherever I'm working cos they provide new perpectives and interesting conversation....

Arts fest is killing me......can't wait for kids fest to end tmw! I've had enuff of kids for a week! Been blowing balloons like everyday! I'm such an expert at handling the 'monster' of an air pump and the helium canister. Perhaps tmw I will do the chip-munky thing wif the helium. Heh.....

Gonna be helluva busy the next 2 weeks.....With camp and more wk and retreats and stuff. I seriously need rest man. :p

Really felt like slapping a parent today...sigh. Die assholes! Die!!

I been tooo tired to post anything recently. Work is juz like draining all of my energy! Hafta smile ard the kids and all even thos sometimes u juz wanna slap them AND their parents.

Am watching Eastern Flicks this fri and then SAF choir on sat! So exciting man...... ;p Oh! And Avi's coming back on sat!!

Oh My God. Am I a genius or wat??? I actually managed to add in the comments thing on my own! Fwah!
All thanks to my bro for the hard work he put in yest to changing my template now i'm slightly more enlightened and not so ignorant of the html stuff. Muahahahahaha

Testing to see if the comments things works

Wah lau....juz tried to change this template and it kept disappearing! Bloody hell...and my bro spent like so long customising it for me somemore! It was a really nice template...but sthg's really wrong wif it! Aargh...and they had no archive templates also lah, tts y switched back to this darned boring one. Sigh. Sleepy already la and soooooo frustrated. =(

There's sthg very fishy going on with the darned template! !@#$%^&*

Just watched "What a girl wants" It's a really really cool movie albeit 'bimbotic' as some pple might say. I guess it isn't like the most intellectual of the lot, but I suppose there's a lot on family...and on being urself. Stuff lidat. AND of course there are the numerous cute guys in the show.....like Oliver James!! My goodness! He's soooo cute! *swoon* What with the British accent and all......and so many nice scenic views of London! And they had this "Prince William" looking type of guy.... ;p... Colin Firth did really well as the dorky kinda british fella. Heh....so cool.

Oh dear....juz realised tt I need Avi to do the enetation(comments) thing again...so lehcheh....but oh well, maybe one day i will try to figure it out myself.

Had a really busy day yesterday....
640am: Woke up and took a lift frm my dad who was gonna send my bro to sch
8am: Reached MITA - too early cos they only start at 830...so went over to funan for breakfast. Really haven't actually done tt before..but it was a nice experience...twas a lovely morning anyway.
845: Tried calling the lady at MITA whom i'm supposed to look for to fill in my form....didn't answer her phone
9am: Tried calling again...finally got her and made my way across the road
920am: Done! Wanted to take 166 to clementi...but cldn't find the bus stop. So decided to walk to Raffles Place mrt. Wah..so darn hot man and twas not as near as I thought!
1005am: Reached sch..and started rehearsing for FOC skit and dance. So tired man....too much activity! And me being a klutz can never fully rem the steps!
105pm: Went for lunch
220pm: Reached clementi hall to play badminton
530pm: Finished badminton and went for drink
630pm: Mass at Holy Cross
750pm: Reached home and bathed and had dinner
9pm: Sweet Raymond came to pick me tog wif Shane and we made our way to Ivan's house. AND we still made it earlier than Chris who went straight to Ivan's house frm Siglap...think he lost his way kekekeke.....and the rest of the night we had wine and had really intellectual conversation which i didn't participate much in cos my batt was like almost gone and I was reaching shut down mode. Heh

Today...my whole body is aching like mad...but really enjoyed yesterdays badminton game! =)

Oh well, here's the plan...I'm gonna post my last few postings of my old blog on this new blog juz so tt there's some sort of continuity... and not so much confusion (I hope!)

Here's what's on my old blog:
Blogger's changing to a new format!! Aargh....trouble trouble...i guess tts cos i don't really adapt well to change...unless i have to. Oh on second thought, I don't adapt well to change la. I don't like it although in some cases it's absolutely necessary.

Was out wif Shane and Mel tonight...we went to watch Anna perform at Heeren as part of the arts fest thing la. She is sooo talented! Being able to play the guitar well and compose! She also has this amazing voice.....so high and sharp and clear and all...AND she has amazing stage presence as Shane said. She was like able to manage wif the giving away of vouchers and all so naturally even amidst the stress of doing her own show! Am really impressed! We went to KFC for dinner and then went to Paradiz to play pool (which i suck at btw....so I was more grouchy than ever tryin to get my stance correct and all) but i suppose I really enjoyed spending time wif them....love you pple! =)

Then I wanted to write about my "date" wif Weicheng and Yihao on fri....we went to the Singapore Art Museum (SAM) to look at the exhibits and all cos Yihao wanted to do some research before his term starts. (So hardworking!!) Yup, then we went for dinner at this really nice place called sthg Piazza which was at Atrium@Orchard next to P.S. and the silly boy Weicheng tried to hit on the waitress. Yihao and I were soooo paiseh, i guess esp me cos I'm not used to his kinda thing happening...n i suppose she was quite young, so still kinda 'receptive' in an innocent way to this kinda thing. Sigh. Maybe I'm juz jealous tt nobody ever picks me up....ahaha.....(juz in line wif the crazy deperate bitch in one of my comments eh? But who gives a shit? I dun!) Anyway...back to the point....it was a nice place...altho the food was only ok.....the desserts were absolutely decadent and the company was great so really enjoyed myself! It was a refreshing change cos I hardly hang out with these pple...in comparison to the CSS pple. Not tt i dun enjoy spending time wif u guys k! U know i do....twas juz different anyway....

Then after tt the poor Weicheng had to rush back to work and Yihao and I ended up going for a drink at Citilink....and we had rather interesting conversation...which left me with a few things to ponder about. Oh, and he really is such a gentleman! He offered to wait wif me till my mom came even though it was rather out of the way....(altogether now: awww....) Perhaps there is still some hope for Singaporean men!! Ahaha...Well, hopefully we'll be able to make it for that Nepal trip someday eh!

Yeah...then on thurs I was out wif the good friend and had dinner at suntec. Tts abt it.... (and this is where it ends....but i'm gonna add more stuff here since irritating pple dun haf access to this blog anymore) And the dinner we had was so absolutely constipated. I had nothing to say to him man. I really hope he realises tt he had nothing to say to me either. Oh well....it's difficult la, this period of time...

K la...need to go slp already...tis very very late and I've got to wake up early tmw for rehearsals!

Oh wow...finally got it to work.

Well, this is my new blog! WELCOME! Decided tt i had to get a new one cos there were these irritating pple who were 'defacing' my beautiful, sweet and innocent blog so i just had to get them assholes out!

Teeheehee....am rather pleased wif myself!

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