Mixed Feeeelingssss

Mixed Feeeelingssss

It's not that I've had nothing to say recently...rather, it's the opposite. Too many things running thru my mind. Too many realisations abt stuff, abt things which: I like/don't like; don't like but know there's nothing I can do abt it at this point; are just too ephemeral and I'm not sure whether I shld juz try to enjoy the moment or plan what I'm gonna do when it's gone. Until I dunno how to express myself also. Haha. Ok. Thinking too much again.

And as cliched or as annoying this thought maybe - The festive season really exacerbates one's sense of 'loneliness'. And.. I realised this year, that I haven't actually experienced Christmas being single in a long long time. It hasn't been all misery tho, I'm abit like Scrooge, when it comes to X'mas...cos I generally don't like all the festivities and partying and present buying etc. But this year, the experience was different. I didn't really hate buying presents all tt much. Maybe cos I could choose to give more to those who really mattered. But for the record, X'mas shopping is not one of my fave past times. I also didn't have to think of sthg to get for the future "MIL" (cough cough) Woo! Haha.

And maybe I've also been bz helping to plan Pam's wedding. Oh well. More musings if/when I have time la. In the meantime, this is the song that's been running thru my head tonight.



p/s: Gg to the doc tmw to hopefully get a jab for the damned rash I been having for the past week or so. Grrr. Wish me luck!

Jin Zhui Dai Ji

Jin Zhui Dai Ji

Hurt my bloody leg while shifting the car just now.. cos I happened to knock it against one of the compartments which my mother idiotically left open =_= Never realised how fragile the skin there was. Just missed my old wound by abt 2cm? Rem the one which ripped off quite a bit of my skin while getting up the shuttle bus in NUS.. and made me bleed so much Shane got damn stressed? Ahhh... memories. Haha.

Anyway, damn sian tt now I'm gonna have another scar next to the old one. And just when I thought I cld start wearing skirts again once I stop visiting the sinseh (who keeps leaving diff patterns every time I go). Right leg got pattern, left leg got blood. So many problems lah! Gaaah.

In other (happier) news, I am super excited abt tmw night. Can't say why tho, cos it's a secret! Haha.. ok la, has to do with a bunch of colleagues...and we're going on an adventure! But anyway. Parents just left for Tokyo .. so free use of car for 4 whole days! And I gave them a long shopping list too :p

Ja-ja-ja-jaded

Ja-ja-ja-jaded

Watched Rapunzel on Mon and... I was really rather disappointed. Was discussing over lunch today with Senko whether it was a case of being old and jaded.. or that they just don't make disney movies like they used to anymore. The story was rather flat... like no real climatic moments, no real bad guys (the old lady was abit half-assed) and the music was just blah. Rapunzel herself wasn't particularly intelligent, neither was the fella.

What's happened to the magical disney cartoons man? I miss the ones like Hercules and Mulan.. those had real music and super creative ways of reworking the story man. Just check out the chorus in Hercules. The 5 black gospel singers. They are how cool la.



Or maybe I really am old and jaded... and such stories don't appeal to me anymore? No patience for pantomimes either. Watched Cindere-lah with my parents last night and was actually damn bored halfway. I mean, I did think they reworked the story well with the local context, as well as the insertion of tons of double meanings. It was quite entertaining, but maybe I'd have enjoyed it more as a kid. (Or if they didn't get Darius and Enlai to do the typical evil step-sisters in drag. zzzz)

Or maybe I just need to be child-like and believe in dreams again. (and Disney just has to get their mojo back man) haha. Leave u guys with a beautiful 方大同 song. ~我爱故我在...

Thoughts on (not) Running

Thoughts on (not) Running

The best laid plans of mice and men oft' do go awry. This depicts the sad situation my dad and I were in this year. 2 bloody race packs sitting in the living room. None of which could be used cos under Doc's advice, we were both told not to run. For diff reasons tho.

I suppose, my dad's disappointment was greater since the marathon is sthg he does every year. But still... it's been quite a journey for me, signing up for this run, preparing (for months!), then buggering up my knee, thinking that it'll heal, hearing that it's alright to run, then deciding tt.. it prob wasn't a gd idea after all. So I went as a supporter instead. Go Steven, go go go!! :D



And we did manage to catch him at the 'supporter points' where we kind of planned to. Ok, more like he spotted us first. And I put my loud voice to gd use by cheering him on. Twice :)

Never thought I'd say this - since I still don't like running, and that I actually had to wake up damn early, like 545am that day - but the atmosphere was terribly infectious. Tons and tons of pple, in all shapes/sizes/ages/weird costumes signed up to run. (see photo below) Honestly, if u were there.. u'd just be drawn to join the crowds and run too. (Yes Meng, I'm talking abt u! :p)


(Photo credit: 小红）

Of course, I did also think whether I'd be annoyed with pple blocking my way, and the lack of space to run where and how I liked cos there were just so many pple. But maybe it was just to make myself feel better for not being able to run. So the qn on my mind that morning, really, was that "Since I missed it this year, would I sign up again next year?" I really don't know leh. Saw at least 2 pple cramping like mad and being in much discomfort after completing their run.. and said to myself, "Why do pple do this to themselves?!". Altho.. running 10km only surely no cramp one la. But seriously, the circumstance in how I came to sign up this year was, 为了"爱情"而做傻事. Haha, what drama :p

I don't rule out the possibility of that happening to me again next year (if the person is really worth it! hah!) although I am really v curious if, had I been able to run, whether I'd have met my target.

It'd be an exercise in understanding myself - maybe my body just ain't built for running, or that i need to take it super slow; and my priorities - which is more impt, badminton or running? Can't do both, cos my body prob won't be able to tahan (actually I alr know the ans to this). Oh well, see how la!

Head VS Heart

Head VS Heart

Have been in this idiotic situation many times; My head knows one thing, but my heart wants another.

I used to think that if I knew what was wrong about the situation, then at the very least I can psycho myself to not feel. But feelings can really be annoying, and make u do stupid things on impulse.

For now though, the score is Head: 1, Heart: 0. But it's not clear who's winning.

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Did sthg out of the ordinary yesterday, and was surprised at how well it turned out. Swimming plans got shelved becos of the rain (again, as usual) so I spontaneously went shopping with a new colleague for another colleague's wedding gift.

I don't know this person very well, but we had good conversation over dinner.. and it's nice how he understands what really goes into a theatrical production. I think, other than my TS classmates and pple I know in the circle, I haven't really been able to have such discussions with anyone else.

It's cute cos he's young and eager/earnest.. haven't met many of those at work (who don't seem weird) these days. In one of our nonsense conversations he actually jokingly called me "Andrea 姐姐" and not "aunty"! I don't know why, but it felt like.. 亲切 or sthg. Hmm.. not sure how to explain. Ok maybe i was tired and cldn't really think straight. But it's not what u guys think ok! 不要想歪哦!

V strangely I seem to keep hanging out with pple younger than me these days. I wonder why...